late

Sorry, late doing a post!

Three nitroglycerin overnight, as the heart conyinues to give out with regularity.
So, Thursday morning was in the doctor's again.
sigh

Tomorrow I was going to take mother to have lunch with her brother.
Except her mental issues kicked in yesterday and she cancelled.
"They" are watching.
"They" are waiting to break in.
"They" are will steal everything ....

You can't combat mental illness.

It also does no good that yes, she has been bugged,
Discovered by the phone company.
She has been broken into several times by a neighbor with a thing for her.
Lots of small stuff and food taken.

But she now refuses to leave her home,
Unless she wants to.

And apparently, lunch with her dying brother does not fit in with her desires.
Oh well.
As Somer, texted me when I exploded,
"Just send her a card. To bad so sad for her!"

Yeah, Somer, is a cold one.
sigh

Thinking

I have never responded well to the concept of limitations.
Someone tells me, "You can't."
And I must prove them wrong.
The fact you are using a computer to read this is proof of this.
I was told back in 1975, "A disk drive can not .....",
So, I wrote the first "digital" disk drive operating system.
Yeah, I was fired for it.
IBM found my creation far more interesting!

And now I learn that I did sustain bodily damage in the stroke four years ago .....
That piece of information changes almost all of my plans!
 I should have been able to guess at this.
But, my left side has always been my weakest!
So, during recovery,
It did not surprise me that driving was hard.
Or, doing up buttons.

sigh

I am unsure what the limitation means to my desires to:
Ride the 210 mile Seattle To Portland bicycle ride again
Hunt for lost treasures
Hike the Yukon Trail with Swede, as his grandfather did in 1897
Climb Longs Peak again
Kill that Russian boar with my name on it
Can I even still shoot, much less at long distances?
or ... so many, many other things!

 I just do not know now how active I can be and still survive.
Darn those lousy genetics!

But, oh well, nothing I can do about it!
But, I can still push the boundaries,
To see what I can still do.

Oh Pooey!

Well certainly God has been merciful across all of the health issues I have struggled with!
I just plod along through life.
Mostly okay,
Albeit, continually with no memory!

However, I started the Cardio Rehab program at the local heart health institute.
And the results were a bit surprising.

It seems that Kris' 2015 stroke during surgery was not without physical cost!

Yeah, I finishing up my routines,
About ten minutes left to go,
When my left side just failed me.

It was like we had pushed too hard,
And now the limbs were rebelling!
 No, it  was not another stroke.
So, it could only be from 2015!
Dagnabbit!

So, like my father before me,
And his father before him,
I get the joys of restricted motion,
Twenty years before either of them!
As well as, no brain to go with it.

Sigh ....

One is tempted to question if my life expectancy will be shortened as well.
In which casr next year would be it for me,
Following the twenty year loss idea.

But, as God has made plainly evident to me:
My Days are in His more than capable hands,
Not mine!

Follow Ups

So thought I would post some updates on previous posts:

Adoptive Father is still bed ridden.
Currently in a .hospice as he exhausted his funds for at home care.
Probably will go see him today.
I don't think he has a clue whom I am any longer.

Health is still a challenge with me.
Heart is jujst mighty weak!
But am now in a cardiac gym program.
So, hopefully I will be back to walking a mile a day again shortly.
For now, suffering through 1  or 2 heart failures a week!
Yeah, eating Nitro like it is candy ...

Gaelic Girl is back to her prickly old self.
Still in pain from the knee replacement.
Working way too many hours on her feet.
Yeah, this is a faikure in the making.
But, no one ever listens to me ....

Swede had a stent put in his heart artery last week.
So is now trying to define what his new "normal" will be.
For now, mighty weak!

I have been debating a problem concerning International Banker Girl.
I am hesitant to say anything, without talking with her first.
It may just be an appearance of a problem - I hope!
Not a situation rebellion against God ...

I am quite concerned about Dutchman.
Nothing from him since February.
Very odd!

Well that is about as much as I can think of at the moment!

Musical Saturday Morning

Father Brown

I was switching channels last night and ran across Father Brown
I do not generally watch this show.
Acting is challenged.
Dialogue is flat.
Story lines are really bad!

Yeah, not too impressed!

But, the phone ran an I was unable to turn it off.
And it was intriguing.
If for nothing more than to see what will they do to condemn a woman serial killer?
And they totally went sideways from standard Hollywood  fare.

What set this episode apart is that they actually confronted the serial killer!
And did a gospel presentation!

Yeah, they really covered all of the bases there!

It was simply amazing and so unexpected!

My oh my Father Brown, you were downright evangelical!
And you know that there are standards of behavior and referenced the show!

WOW!

Lost IT!

Yes, Kris has finally lost it!

I went to schedule today's activities, last night.
Only to find that the basis of my life is missing!
Yes, my Day Timer has gone missing!

All of my phone numbers.
All of my appointments.
All of my notes on what I need to remember!
The outline for my next book .... !

I feel ill!

I know it was in  my  haversack yesterday mornming,
I know it was no there at luch time.
Since the place I openned was at the doctor's,
While mom had oral surgery,
I am hoping they found it!

sigh .....