September 30, 2017
September 29, 2017
Gaelic Girl
Super late post, sorry.
GG busted up a knee about 18 months ago and outside of shots, ignored it.
Of course, it got worse - much worse.
So I had her in surgery before 6 this morning!
The knee is a mess internally now and will need full replacement, probably next year.
sigh ......
And I am now officially exhausted!
GG busted up a knee about 18 months ago and outside of shots, ignored it.
Of course, it got worse - much worse.
So I had her in surgery before 6 this morning!
The knee is a mess internally now and will need full replacement, probably next year.
sigh ......
And I am now officially exhausted!
September 28, 2017
Winding Down
It is with the greatest of joy, that I now know my time is statistically short!
Yes, the last Plattner male still has whatever time God has given me.
But, my body's failure is already written on the sands.
I have been undergoing some pretty harsh testing this past summer:
My kidneys have nothing left of them :(
Yup superior German genes - NOT!
I doubt this will go well, nothing else in my life ever has.
Sigh .....
So, coming to terms with this in my mind.
Knowing my end is spelled POTASSIUM poisoning.
Or the more vulgar - massive heart attack.
Maybe a coma first would be nice .....
I was told today it could be as quick as 10 days or as long as years.
There is just no way to actually predict.
They just see from the blood numbers that my kidneys are barely functional.
Personally I will opt for as long as possible.
But, not for me - for my grandkids and kids that still have not figured out life yet!
There is much one could say,
But why bother
No one ever listens in the end in this culture ....
So when my health unwinds, I will be in a coma for up to a week I am told.
No warning
Just a fade away.
Next week I start my planning in preparation.
Arrange and pay for a cremation.
Do a new will.
And sell off as much as possible .....
Get crazy mother to understand she needs to move closer to my sister.
sigh ....
Yes, the last Plattner male still has whatever time God has given me.
But, my body's failure is already written on the sands.
I have been undergoing some pretty harsh testing this past summer:
My kidneys have nothing left of them :(
Yup superior German genes - NOT!
I doubt this will go well, nothing else in my life ever has.
Sigh .....
So, coming to terms with this in my mind.
Knowing my end is spelled POTASSIUM poisoning.
Or the more vulgar - massive heart attack.
Maybe a coma first would be nice .....
I was told today it could be as quick as 10 days or as long as years.
There is just no way to actually predict.
They just see from the blood numbers that my kidneys are barely functional.
Personally I will opt for as long as possible.
But, not for me - for my grandkids and kids that still have not figured out life yet!
There is much one could say,
But why bother
No one ever listens in the end in this culture ....
So when my health unwinds, I will be in a coma for up to a week I am told.
No warning
Just a fade away.
Next week I start my planning in preparation.
Arrange and pay for a cremation.
Do a new will.
And sell off as much as possible .....
Get crazy mother to understand she needs to move closer to my sister.
sigh ....
September 27, 2017
Conference
I am part of a class that was supposed to be cutting edge in dealing with people. I have less than NO interest, but am trying to be a peace maker by attending. Long story - sigh! But, then again, I am just a kindergartner, starting life all over ...
The first week I was utterly clueless. It was as though there was some unsaid premise they were speaking to. I was not the only utterly lost person! It still makes no sense to me. These are supposed to be really smart people! So ..... what the heck?
Now, second class and abrupt changes in subject and approach ..... and grasping at long discredited psychology approach.........
So yeah, you may have heard lately of how precognitive psychology not only being valid but the basis of most of your problems. One of my "family" members spent a fortune on this rather bogus pursuit and in the 1980's this path of finding out why you are so screwed up - was showed to be the very basis for screwing people up! And though my "brother" scoffed at this discrediting of his psychological crutch, he refused to let go of the idea that all of his problems dated back to poor parenting by his family! He still blames them for everything! Apparently he is made out of teflon ....
And now it is back and in the pseudo-Christian realm! AAAARRRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!
No, I said nothing in the class. I am not there to fight with only half a brain and I have enough to deal with, without looking for more opportunities! So, I will continue to go, to think on, to pray over - but it is hard to envision this line of study to be valid ( especially since it has already been discredited by the very science that spawned it decades ago!).
Sigh, Christian political correctness .....
The first week I was utterly clueless. It was as though there was some unsaid premise they were speaking to. I was not the only utterly lost person! It still makes no sense to me. These are supposed to be really smart people! So ..... what the heck?
Now, second class and abrupt changes in subject and approach ..... and grasping at long discredited psychology approach.........
So yeah, you may have heard lately of how precognitive psychology not only being valid but the basis of most of your problems. One of my "family" members spent a fortune on this rather bogus pursuit and in the 1980's this path of finding out why you are so screwed up - was showed to be the very basis for screwing people up! And though my "brother" scoffed at this discrediting of his psychological crutch, he refused to let go of the idea that all of his problems dated back to poor parenting by his family! He still blames them for everything! Apparently he is made out of teflon ....
And now it is back and in the pseudo-Christian realm! AAAARRRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!
No, I said nothing in the class. I am not there to fight with only half a brain and I have enough to deal with, without looking for more opportunities! So, I will continue to go, to think on, to pray over - but it is hard to envision this line of study to be valid ( especially since it has already been discredited by the very science that spawned it decades ago!).
Sigh, Christian political correctness .....
September 26, 2017
American Assassin
Took myself to a movie yesterday.
First choice was Kingsman, but Swede wants to see this, so must wait.
The only other film of any interest to me is American Assassin.
It was as expected, so I will not rehash what the Army, DOD and DOS tried to do with me.
I was easy to spot in this film - I was the one laughing heartily! They did a good job for a film whose audience is aimed at 14 year olds and men whom have suffered brain damage or other mental stunting!
On the good side:
Injuries go forward across sequences - no "magic" healings between shots.
Really bad science which will kill you if you mistake this story line for reality!
No nudity!
Alfa Romeo's!
On the bad side:
Don't get too attached to the females, they do not fair well!
Really bad science a trip to the library could have saved the story from!
Biggest flaw is the inability of the writer/director/actors to model the differences between being murderous, a sociopath and/or psychopath! Yes, it does matter because different behaviors underlie each!
Yeah, I will probably buy this one just for the memories it brought back to this clouded mind ....
First choice was Kingsman, but Swede wants to see this, so must wait.
The only other film of any interest to me is American Assassin.
It was as expected, so I will not rehash what the Army, DOD and DOS tried to do with me.
I was easy to spot in this film - I was the one laughing heartily! They did a good job for a film whose audience is aimed at 14 year olds and men whom have suffered brain damage or other mental stunting!
On the good side:
Injuries go forward across sequences - no "magic" healings between shots.
Really bad science which will kill you if you mistake this story line for reality!
No nudity!
Alfa Romeo's!
On the bad side:
Don't get too attached to the females, they do not fair well!
Really bad science a trip to the library could have saved the story from!
Biggest flaw is the inability of the writer/director/actors to model the differences between being murderous, a sociopath and/or psychopath! Yes, it does matter because different behaviors underlie each!
Yeah, I will probably buy this one just for the memories it brought back to this clouded mind ....
September 25, 2017
Idolatry
We constantly slip into making gods in our own image and fashion ...
Exodus 32\
Why Are We Tempted?
Where do you turn to in times of trouble?
Defines whom God is to you ....
The escaping slaves had just had the Law given to them by Moses ... and within a slink of the eye ... they are building idols ...
What Do We Worship?
Anything that s more important to you than God.
It absorbs your heart and imagination more than God.
Whom or whatever you think can give you, what you think you want - need, which only God cab give you ...
Taking Responsibility
Idolatry leads to self-indulgence and sin
Aaron shifted blame, minimized sin..
And I am quite sure I am just as guilty as Aaron of this as well .....
sigh
Exodus 32\
Why Are We Tempted?
Where do you turn to in times of trouble?
Defines whom God is to you ....
The escaping slaves had just had the Law given to them by Moses ... and within a slink of the eye ... they are building idols ...
What Do We Worship?
Anything that s more important to you than God.
It absorbs your heart and imagination more than God.
Whom or whatever you think can give you, what you think you want - need, which only God cab give you ...
Taking Responsibility
Idolatry leads to self-indulgence and sin
Aaron shifted blame, minimized sin..
And I am quite sure I am just as guilty as Aaron of this as well .....
sigh
September 23, 2017
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