Raw Nerve

If emotions were a raw nerve,
Satan nailed mine yesterday.

Day by day, I usually do well at just maintaining, which is to say I am lucky no one actually pays much attention to me or my inability to not hide my feelings would label me weird.  But then again, I am only at two years and a few months of having them.  And God strengthens me - literally moment by moment.

But still Satan lurks and the minute I am not watching, BLAM! It nails me every time.  So random, from so many different directions, so raw the wound ...  Of course, it has to be a part of my life I have no ability to protect myself from - my heart.  As I commented one time not so long ago, God manipulates us to put us where He wants us, He gives me clues occasionally and that is only made worse when God tells me things which are very detailed and His answers are not changing with time.  Sigh.  And all of the world is running in the opposite direction and telling you that you are the problem - not their lack of listening.  Sigh .....

Yeah, vague I know, but I am not likely to ever share my heart uncloaked in a social forum ever again!

So, a horrid day with many tears.
No matter, I am the only one whom apparently cares.
And I have many other stressors to deal with which are more immediate.
Like surviving surgery in a week.
And an utterly insane mother ...

Please keep me in prayer.