Amnesia

For those whom know me personally and read my ramblings, I finally figured out a way to explain what amnesia is like:

Imagine that before your brain trauma you were normal.
You know someone named Bob.
They live on Bob Lane in Bobville.
You might even know everything there is to know about Bob.

And then "wake up".

You now have buckets.
One contains names:
Bob
Bob Lane
Bobville

One contains the contents of every conversation you have ever had.
Another bucket is all of your activities.

But each of the people, place and things are all equal in your mind - there is no way to tell one from another.

Conversations are worse because you have content but they are not attached to anyone, nor is the context known!

Same for activities, or everything you have ever seen!

So there are memories but the index into my mind is broken. 
Nothing is attached to anything else. 
Sigh.

And I know that even with a broken mind, I know all is not how it should be. 
But I have no way of knowing what it is! 
But I have no way of knowing what should be.

So frustrating.

For those whom interact with me - this is the best I can do to explain my strange new world ....