Concussion

I have to beg your indulgence - the last two posts have been written with a concussion - it will apparently be months before i will be able to read these and know if they make sense or not.  Add that I only have one working eye at the moment - as the right one is still swollen up!  Yup, these writings ought to keep spelling and grammar Nazi's up at night!

And even I recognize that my brain is damaged.  There are simple questions it takes me much thought to answer!  And  even harder to proof read what I write!

My mother is calling constantly and driving me crazy!  She is like: go buy a new car and drive me around shopping next week!  She does not understand that Washington State suspends your drivers license when you pass out!  But with one eye - I am not going to be driving anyone, even me, anywhere!

Much less, I am not comfortable using my inheritance to buy a car ... but i realize that my mind is hindered - so maybe my mother and sister are right - go buy a car!  But how does that honor Gwen's memory?  Some how I think the question of honoring Gwen and her memory ... does not involve things nor my comfort - but investing in others the way she invested in me for 42 years!

But, as I said, I am very confused by this concussion ... I am just not ready for reality ...