Expiration Date

We live in a world where everytthing comes with an expiration date.  Everything wears out, runs down, dies.  Just a fact, there are no exceptions.  Of course we live our lives as though we are the exception.

To make a long story short, I was predicted to reach that date this Friday.  No argument from me, my body is wasted -just to have lied through this week has been a miracle of medications and technology!  Were it not for that auto accident ...sigh ......

I continue to fight for life.
I have no fear of death,
I am assured of what lies beyond this life.
But at what cost do I continue this fight?

For now I will fight against this expiration date.
I would so much rather face my final demise.
But, it seems God has a purpose,
If I "play" along.
And get past my own hang ups in a major way.

So, Friday morning I start dialysis,
For my kidneys killed in the auto accident in December.
August would have been better timing for me.
But thank heavens I had the surgery in December,
Now, if only I was healed from it so the veins were usable.
Sigh ...

To those whom know me:
I Hate needles.
With a paranoia bordering on the psychotic.
Friday, I have to have a catheter installed for the needles.
And then there is the dialysis .....
All prayer gratefully sought.