Troubled

It has troubled my spirit mightily that I had a stroke, and never had any indication.
Conversely, it is yet another example of how I am not where I need to be.
No one actually notices me enough to see my brain crashed at some point.
Just a whole lot of self interests.

So, I have sought to try and figure this out,
When did this happen?

Not an easy task when I have complete amnesia from 2015 back.
Partial amnesia from 2017 back.
Yeah, those surgical meds really wipe me out!
But I do have faint echoes of what might be memories.
Just no ability to know if they are real.

The only real in my past is what I have written.
Letters, blogging, etc .
The only memory I have.
And there is no answer to be fiound.

sigh

Just lovely, no brain, no poain I guess!
LOL
And God can always remind me.
If it is important and needs to be remember

sigh