Breakfast

On my calendar this morning was a note to go to breakfast with the seniors group in my church.
I have done a few of their activities through past trips.
Generally life remains the same, I can be totally ignored in any crowd.
But I continue to try.

So, they planned a breakfast for this morning to a local pancake house a few miles away.
I thought it would be fun to go, if only because the owner was one of my kids back in 1982.
Yeah, she was in a junior high group I was a youth leader for.
She was memorable only because she possessed the WORST attitude for any teenager I have ever encountered!
And, that says something!

We felt so sorry for her parents.
Many prayers by lots of people for that young lady.
But, she grew into a woman and hardened.
She could never understand why "life" was so against her.
It was just God honoring those many prayers to draw her back to Him.

So, I thought about it.
Decided to take my youngest daughter to breakfast ....
Besides my spirit is already troubled.
Last night I had a call from one of my girls from 1995 to 1997.
Her call was completely a mis-dial.

But there are no coincidences in life.
So I knew that her call might have been an accident on her part by not on God's part!
I found out she is moving to a new life.
And very elusive to anything requiring a real answer.

I wish we could have talked longer, but she was in a hurry.

So bizarre.
To hear from a kid that I have not heard from in decades.
Once, she had been a part of my extended family.
One of only three females I ever invested myself in.
I really wanted NOTHING to do with her, but she was desperate to have me be her father.
Not exactly a role I was looking for at the time.
But I could try to help her - at a distance.
Mostly I kept her out of jail.
Over, over and over again!

Comparing her to a feral cat would not be untrue.
And her memory has always haunted me.
I could have done more early on, before her path was set.
I could have let her in.
But, I may have been overly wary.

And her life did not go well back then, nor has it gone well since.
I learned.

Perhaps she will call again sometime.
Perhaps she will share so I can pray for her more in detail.

And how did she get my number!?!
Truly only God knows at this point.