Its a Morning!

Yes indeed it is a morning!
Argy-Bargs!

Talked for a little while on the phone last night with my oldest friend.
But, I am so weak from whatever whacked me last week, I could barely hold the phone!
Then to bed, about 7:30!
Yeah, just as weak as a kitten.

And I guess it triggered something in my mind.
Of course you have to remember all memory stops at 1978.
So, my mind is still trying to figure out the mess from 1975!
And memories flooded back, augmented by a few newer memories that completed stories.
It is weird living with what is left of my mind!

Once again having to struggled through Oona's abandonment of our marriage.
Add the betrayals of my two best friends at the time.
And, yeah, you have a sickening soap opera on your hands,
Much less having to relive it in your dreams!
Nothing like waking up in a murderous mood .....

So, now that I was awake, I thought on her parents, whom bare full responsibility for what happened.
And I wondered if her sins were really on them?
They set a chain of events in motion which could only end the way it has.
Or, is the fact that her sins were voluntary, leave them on her?
Sure glad I am not God.
I don't have to worry on such things!

But it was a nightmare being reminded of such things.
It helps me understand my own issues with trust now.
Three people I had blindly trusted all betrayed me in a very short space of time.
And interestly, all three felt it was my problem, not theirs!

And her path of destruction, was on her and not them.
I don't get it.
But then we lived in a no fault - no responsibility society.
Too bad God does not agree with this outlook on life!


Oh well.
Old news.
And I have no idea why this came roaring back this morning.
It would have been so much more pleasant to have dreamt of my Danish Uncle's farm.
Memories I cherish - preferred over horror stories, such as Oona represents.

Well, enough of my start to the day.
Running down to Orting to take my mother shopping for turkey and all the fixings!
Yeah, she prefers NOT to associate with anyone anymore ......
sigh

Gonna be a bad afternoon.
I can just tell ......