Finding God's Will

It was just after Easter, I had been a Christian perhaps six months.  I was in this small study group (for the day, about 30 of us!) and we were talking about discerning God's Will for our lives.

I mean really, what young adult does not wonder about that!  Here you are for twelve years plowing through school, you graduate, perhaps are working or now in college - and you think to yourself, "There has to be more to life than this!  What one Earth is it that God wants me to do?"

One of the guys offered that he always just flips open the Bible and somewhere on that page is what God wants him to do.  So, the leader said, "Let's test this!  Everyone grab a Bible and read the first verse that pops up."

We we had just finished Easter, my bookmark was still at Matthew 27:5 - where Judas hangs himself ...

Well of course, this brought rounds of laughter, many comments that I really should consider this, as well as, my point that this is nothing but Christian superstition.  It became a lively discussion.

Last night I met with my communications guy, the one trying to help me work through why I seem to foul up the simplest of desires and we got to talking about where am I going, how do I know God's leading, etc.  And he said, "Well just read your Bible, there is lots of good stuff in there to follow.  Just open it up to a random place and you will see what you should be doing ..."

And I literally just stared at him like he was crazy ... he just told me to be superstitious and not listen to God's quiet voice inside of me.  And all I could think of was what my friend's laughter would be over this one!  Gees!

Okay, so back home I did as instructed, just to say I did it.  I gave it three shots and purely random, closed Bible, not letting it fall open to a spine break spot, and I got:

•  Isaiah 60:15... I will make you the everlasting pride and the joy of all generations.
• Jeremiah 29:7  Also, seek the peace and prosperity of the city to which I have carried you into exile. Pray to the LORD for it, because if it prospers, you too will prosper.
•  Micah 7:7-10  7 But as for me, I watch in hope for the LORD, I wait for God my Savior; my God will hear me.8 Do not gloat over me, my enemy! Though I have fallen, I will rise. Though I sit in darkness, the LORD will be my light. 9 Because I have sinned against him, I will bear the LORD's wrath, until he pleads my case and establishes my right. He will bring me out into the light; I will see his righteousness. 10 Then my enemy will see it and will be covered with shame, she who said to me, "Where is the LORD your God?" My eyes will see her downfall; even now she will be trampled underfoot like mire in the streets. 

So for Isaiah, the verse was split so it was the end of the verse I saw first.
As for Jeremiah, it was good to re-read a few chapters following the verse I fell upon.
And I guess I forgot what a gem Micah is as I ended up reading the entire book afterwards!


So, if this was a secret message from God to me, what does it mean?
Perhaps my insanity of recent history is not? 
That perhaps Kris has been obedient, while all burns around him?
That my work for God is not over or even close to it?
Perhaps I should go into local politics?
That God has got my back and woe to my critics?

Although it would be nice to believe that given where I am in my non-life, that these verses were randomly meant for me at this moment in time to lift me up and buoy my resolve to make it through the next 30 days.  And, certainly God is entirely capable of doing just that, if not more!  But, like all weirdness in my life I will not hold fast to that as a promise or dream - but will be happy if it is true.

So, I must return to the previously learned way God has communicated with me: my spirit is lead where I would never think of going ...