Yesfir ...

So across the past four years have come an oddity: emails from Yesfir, from her varied accounts.

The first one came from an ISP address in northern Italy.  It matches with her friends there.  So I know it was not from her.  However, one day she and I will have a talk about that one!  And about her choice in friends.  I deleted it.

The second one came from central western Russia.  Again, a place where she has friends.  Since I now I knew it was not her again, I deleted it.

The third one looked far too suspicious, ISP addresses all over the eastern world.  But, its contents allowed me to pursue prosecution against a few of her old "friends" and their friends as well - in her self-interest.  And yeah, like the first one, she and I need to talk about this as well.  So it got deleted.

Then Friday came the forth email.

Mind you, I dearly wish to hear from my daughter, more than anything.  Yeah, God has kept me up to date with her - through all she thinks she has kept me in the dark on.  She just has never understood God's power or the bond he set between a father and a daughter.  I can't blame her.  Few understand God is not random and actually has a plan to lead you where he wants you.  Few would believe that the real God would talk to someone was messed up as me.

So, I cautiously opened the email, from one of her little used addresses.  It was just a link to a news story that meant little .... ?????  At least I had no clue why she sent it to me.

I had hoped for something more tangible: a start at reconciliation, an apology, even a "missing you".  Any would have been welcome.

But, I guess I still get to wait on that one.

So, Yesfir, if it really was from you and not another of your friends, for what ever reason - and you really would like to talk, email me again ... it is long over due dear.

And this time I replied.  As I said, God continually tells me how to pray for her and her husband - and perhaps that is all I ever will have from her.  But, it does not need to continue to be this way ....