Youngest Cousin

Note, pseudo-Youngest Cousin  is seven months younger than me.
And of no relation to me - just the niece of my favorite step-mother.

As I mentioned, YC was very moody and I could not figure out why.
Let me tell you about some of the oddness naive old me completely missed.
In fact it was not until this weekend I was able to fully understand some of the dynamics.
Yup, often times dumber than a stump!

So, first day, we are all standing around talking.
YC is wrapped around my left arm and holding my hand.
(no she wasn't purring ...)
No big deal I had all of these old women, whom I am clueless as to whom they were other than widows of the nuclear scientists who built this place, clinging to my right arm and continually hugging me!
For four straight hours!
If you fully understood how uncomfortable I am with people touching me, you could understand why I was so clueless as to what was going on.
Add PTSD, and Kris is sweating, shaking and dumb as a brick wall!

In the midst, of this clamor, someone said something really funny and I snorted!
Yeah, catch Kris off guard and he snorts while laughing!
Then YC started snorting and Somer joined in as well!
It was tremendously funny!
Then YC said, "Oh God Kris, I love you!"
And one of the little old ladies said, "Hell, girl you told me, you loved him 40 years ago!"
There was so much laughter that it just slid right past me.
But, even if I had of caught it, I would not have reacted.
I am, if nothing else, a gentleman.

The next day was a very  morose YC.
I figured that the shock of her husband seeing the YC I knew, versus whom she is today, caused a fight.
I know that my sister was married for decades before her husband saw an entirely different side of her, when I visited them.
I reasoned this must be  why the attitude.

But throughout the four days, this happened at least once a day!
By day four, my mind was thinking on this repeated phase.
But, when said in the presence of her husband, it must have no meaning.
Right?
Or was she just trying to goad him into a fight?

The last day, she kissed me good-bye.
No we are not talking a quick peck on the cheek.
We are talking full mouth and then lingered ...
Talk about a Surprise!
Certainly that was a first in very many years! (would precede loss of memory!)
No husband in sight either .....
But her daughters were all present and watching.
I just took it as part of the weirdness of the weekend.
Maybe she was just overly friendly?
What was the intent, if any?

But as I was sharing with you about my time in Colorado, it filled me with troubling thoughts.
If she was playing a game, then why me?
If she really had such a crush on me 40 years ago, then why be so silent?
I don't get it.
I was very enamored with her 40 years ago.
No one behaves this way around me!
And besides Somer and I both agreed we were poor prospects for anyone back then!

But, my life is already too weird to even think of addressing anything like this .....
I truly have no reaction to this!
More true is that I have no idea what a proper response should be.
So, ignoring it is all I came up with.

Besides, I am fairly certain our paths will never cross again.
Unless her sister dies before me.
And may that not be so ....  

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So, as I thought about this, I wonder how this works in what the Holy Spirit told me about her.
And here, is where having my mind intact would help.
From what I know, she is struggling. (nope not going there)
She lacks a Christian background.
And I fear that being part of the Hollywood crowd will be a problem.
It gives too much wiggle room for Satan to side track her in finding God.
Her sister is a Christian so ...... maybe ..... ?????
Heck if I know.