What a Maroon!

This is actually the second time I have written and posted about this.  January was when I originally had done so.  But it seemed at the time, God caused a confusing change ... suddenly everything was not as it seemed.  How the heck was I to have figured this out?  So, you roll with situation and think up a new post.  But, in the back of your mind - you are quite confused - up is no longer up.

And now for a second time this year - it happens again!  I write the post - and change is there before the post is published!  But, no, none of this reflects human attributes - it is confusion .... and God is not about confusion.  I can see clearly ahead, but I keep getting hit from the sides ...

Have you ever been played?  I would not attempt to define being played, other than  being  used by someone, for whatever reasons, to their ends and not your good.

I have thought on this for months.

Am I too trusting or is it that I trust too easily?
I have only ever trusted seven people in my life ...  But maybe I just have a problem believing the "signs" that foretell of problems ahead.  Afterall they are trusted.

Have I somehow lost touch with seeing what is of God versus what is over Satan?  Well, you do have to ask yourself.

Am I cutting people slack when none is due them?  Am I listening to excuses and lies, trusting people are being straight up with me?  Yeah, well, as Bugs Bunny says, "What a Maroon!".
Or, maybe everyone in the world really does have a drug problem ...

Only real logical explanation.

So, I am back to where I was in January.  Angry with myself, feeling betrayed (because I trusted), feeling stupid (and I really hate stupid!).  Concerned over others behavior.

How does one remain open to people and yet still protect yourself from those whom apparently would prey upon you?

And yet, in the back of my mind,  I keep wondering ... isn't this exactly how we are supposed to be?  Open, transparent, vulnerable?
Everything the world is not?
Else what would show that we different ... ?
 - bruised, battered, victims .....