Musical Saturday Morning

I sit still in a daze, a week now.

I thought of how this new life is far from what I had expected.  Black is white and wrong is right.  All is upside down in this world.  People have proven that I was actually never wrong - before or after the change.  And approaching from a standpoint of love is never enough.  And silly me had thought that was the basis of a relationship - not the totality.

And this is a special Saturday, a first Saturday and I need a 1980's tune.  So, I looked backwards, to the time when I did not know what an ordinary world really was.  To a time when I struggled to understand ... when I thought if only I could be human I could understand, I could be understood.  And God made the changes in me to make me fully human - a complete and utter miracle!  He gave me a heart, He gave me need, He showed me love in all of its forms - which I tried to understand, always misunderstood.  And I found myself reviled on all sides, close became distant, distant disappeared - and the hardest stroke was the silence.

I had lived in an ordinary world, where all was dead, nothing existed - except the rare glimmer of something beyond the horizon.  Where I could never reach.  But, now I can - and all is not as it seemed back then, nor imagined ...

Came in from a rainy Thursday on the avenue
Thought I heard you talking softly

I turned on the lights, the TV, and the radio
Still I can't escape the ghost of you

What has happened to it all?
Crazy someone say
Where is the life that I recognize?
Gone away

But I won't cry for yesterday
There's an ordinary world
Somehow I have to find
And as I try to make my way
To the ordinary world
I will learn to survive

Passion or coincidence once prompted you to say
"Pride will tear us both apart"

Well now prides gone out the window
Cross the rooftops, run away
Left me in the vacuum of my heart

What is happening to me?
Crazy someone say
Where is my friend when I need you most?
Gone away

But I won't cry for yesterday
There's an ordinary world
Somehow I have to find
And as I try to make my way
To the ordinary world
I will learn to survive

Papers in the roadside tell of suffering and greed
Fear today, forgot tomorrow

Besides the news of holy war and holy need
Ours is just a little sorrowed talk

(Just blown away)

And I don't cry for yesterday
There's an ordinary world
Somehow I have to find
And as I try to make my way
To the ordinary world
I will learn to survive

Every world is my world
(I will learn to survive)
Any world is my world
(I will learn to survive)
Any world is my world
Every world is our world