Been Interesting

please forgive my lack of capitol letters, very painful to do still
finger swelling is way down
only a greenish tinge to the hand, deeping on the joints which dislocated
the break seems to be healing well
my dr hates me and thinks i am stupid

as if this was no enough ...
i punctured my left arm and bleed heavily for days because the ER could see no reason for the bleeding
i though i would be funny and commented stigmata - right location!

i got the flu
i had a massive allergy attack to chilies -innocent this time!
that one did about kill me!
I was like, ok God, let's just end this game now ...
i had a rotational tear to my stump (caused by the size of the bone spur!)

the brakes went on my last good car,
someone dumped dirt down my sewer in qualities enough to shut down the plumbing (it was dumped in the bathroom sink, so no ideas whom or what!
the furnace shut down, so no heat through some very cold weather!
and the ants have invaded with the cold weather!
apparently, the house is still warmer than the outdoors!

so six scheduled appointments with repairmen
sigh

yesterday was my day to run my mother around
she is so far gone that she is over the horizon!  gees louise!
but at goodwill at young lady came up to me and asked if i was alright, i am not but thought i was hiding the pain well.  so i told her about the bone spur pain and the pending surgery - and she prayed for me on the spot!
very much appreciated.
there is hope for this culture ...
and i pray God protects that young lady!

so horribly busy
doing what i can
fretting about the rest
my mother is just a distracting from the pain
and terror
God continues to supply my need as they occur
not as i would wish - but a crust of bread is better than cake, when that is all there is ...
God supply is better than my own I realize.

and i fear that God will pull me through this
to a world i can no longer understand
for a purpose i can not fathom
to be of use to no one ...