Another Death

I walked into church Sunday and there was a different greeter than usual.
No big deal.
The lady whom had greeted me for the whole of the year is allowed time off I imagine!
And then someone took me aside later to tell me she was dead ...

Worse part, is that we talked every Sunday for up to 20 minutes each time.
And I never even knew her name!
Of course, given my aversion to females, that is understandable.
But, this lady had been an active prayer warrior for me, for years!

So, I am sad, because she was friendly and genuine.
I feel stupid for allowing my behavior to be dictated by damage I have suffered.
And I worry that she chose death poorly.

Unknown to me, she had been ill for years.
You never would have guessed it.
Yeah, she had many arm problems, but .....
And I thought on all of our discussions about my dialysis experiences.
I just thought she was interested or wanting to know how to pray.
That was the context of the discussions.
No one knew her kidneys were tanking!

So, when she needed to report for dialysis Friday, she chose not to.
And she died Saturday.
So, quick!

Not like the lingered death I got to suffer through in February!
Nor the 21 days they told me it would take.
sigh
On the one hand, I am envious - she is at peace and without constant pain.
On the other - I really hope ssharing my sufferings have not led her to chose unwisely!
I would be devastated if somehow I contributed to an other's suffering or death!
Yeah, that Hutterite upbringing is tightly ingrained.

So, she is at peace.
And she will be warmly remember as someone whom cared.
Whom prayed.
And had no known reason to ....