Just Waiting

Sitting here, not much going on.
Listening to the songs of Fitz and the Tantrum.
Yeah, morose and introspective as I write.
One of those moments when I really need to talk, but the ear I need  ...

So, silence piles on silence and distance grows.

And I thought on this.
If only I had not said what I had, to God, in 2011.
There was no chance of living into 2012 at the time.
What could one final task cost?

I was already dead anyway.

Oh yeah, He threw me a hardball!
Complete with spit, a slice, a spin straight from Hell and I did as promised.
Four years and as many lives.
Success in God's eyes, failure in man's.

Then the mythical occurred.

Sure my death sentence was premature.
Satan attacked with a wrath that even surprised me.
But, God protected and blessed me.
Always keeping me just a moment ahead.

Confounding those arrayed against Him.

No, I am not exactly comfortable.
But, God is sovereign ...He is not going to mislead.
He is going to protect.

He expects my obedience.

To stay obedient to His last order.
To stay obedient to what I know.
To stay ready to move - in any direction.
To always remember I am out of my league!

And I do wish it was more than just a dream ...