Surprise!

In spite of having brain damage - not being able to really KNOW past nor present, much less the meaning of what people tell me.  Everyone talks from a viewpoint of there being past history, so what is said, no matter how terse or convoluted, is understood by all.  Well, not if one of you has no past to recall or an incomplete one.

One of my goals I set for myself was to get out of debt.  I would like to claim brain damage but ... I made some poor financial choices years ago.  Car breaks down on a trip, whip out the Master Card.  Repeat without end it seems on that trip!  Then back home use the card to buy a nice used car that fit the kids.

In December 2009 I had taken David Ramsay's financial peace course and decided that I would dedicate myself to clearing out that debt!  Back then, I made enough to liquidate it all in 90 days - might have to eat beans, but I like legumes!  (and no, I do not really recommend this course.  it has some sound principals but as long as you do not trust God for your daily needs - it is just fine showing you how to rely on yourself, not God ... )

My father died and I had to live in Denver for a month $$$$$.
Plus settle father's estate and debts $$$$$!
And my job went south while I was in Denver.
And no one would even interview someone over 45!
So, I went to college to get a new degree for a new job.
And I was crippled in an auto accident.
And I never recovered, eventually losing my leg last October as a result.
And I was able to barely maintain the original debt level across the years!

In 2014 I had had enough with life and laid out what it would take for me to change my life.
To leave the hatred behind
To rediscover life
To live life with love
Not surrounded by hate.

Number one on that list was get out of debt.
In theory it was possible.
In reality cars break down, people will not pay back what they owe you, etc ... sigh.

Last week, the dam broke and I got most of my money back from the deadbeats.
So, I sit here now, waiting for checks to clear, more than a little stunned.
It is enough to entirely erase my debt!
So, by the end of the year - wow, it will finally happen!

And I so want to go shopping!
I need a Jeep, or a Toyota truck, or a new rifle, or invest in rental property .....

LOL

Will my life change now?
Sadly, the road to the future I envisioned no longer exists.
I had to step back, struggle with this handicap and just accept what is.
I thought God was leading me before, I am still sure of that, but choices made were not mine to make.

So, I accidentally accomplished a goal.
I erased all of the other goals.
No plans.
No desires.
Open to all opportunities God presents.
I am sort of hoping they do not include any people ...
I officially have resigned from the human race.
I want to be a
raccoon when I grow up ...