Thanksgiving

How can it already be Thanksgiving!?!?!?!?
I am barely ready for August!
My how time flies when you get old!
LOL

Eldest daughter is hosting the family this year.  Sort of nice not having to do the dinner.  But, then she might be remembering last year when I could do so little.  So far, all of the kids minus Sasha will be there.  I had offered to bring my mother but she decided that with all of the food in her house, she does not need to go out to eat!

Yeah, the concept of family and thanksgiving means nothing to her.
Another proof that I am adopted ...

For me, I have the fact that I am alive to be thankful for.
Oh mind you, if I had known what 2015 and 2016 where going to be like, I would chosen death.  Even if life is precious, and valuable, loss of a limb and the utter abandonment and rejection I got to observe -  is too high a price to pay for life.
But, then I am in recovery facing another surgery.
And the betrayals are the worse.

Then again, God has seen fit for me to live, seen fit for me to watch my friends, special friends and loved ones slip away.  And with the loss of my mining partner this year -   Death would be so much easier.  And I am to be thankful to Him because He is in charge of my life and I just get to be along for the ride as it appears to careen out of control.

Who knows where this all ends?
Not me!
I know how I would like to see things go/end, but other wills are involved and when there are multiple wills, they rarely will ever be in accord.
Sigh...

Drooling old man ready to report to park bench ... now where did I put those bread crumbs?

And yet, God was gracious this week.
One of my old helpers from Sunday School days had lunch with me - it was good.
Facebook managed to loose another 31 of my friends, they apparently do not miss me yet.
And I give up on Facebook, a junior high mentality, which sickens my soul.
But, one of "my kids" from many years ago popped up and we ended up talking for hours!
It was so refreshing to see how prayers are answered - when you can not see and know nothing!

Probably the greatest thing to happen has been this week - when I was finally able to pay off ALL of my loans and credit cards.  A goal for years.  But, that goal was part of a great goal -which now is in shambles.  But, hey, I will take what God gives me ....  NO MORE DEBT!  I am sure I will write more on this later!