July 24, 2014

In Shock

I have no idea how many times I have managed to injure myself, even unto death at times.  A great many people far better than me have died being far less stupid than me ... some of them were with me, others I knew, and I had just no reply as to why their lives ended and mine continued forward.

When I turned my big toe inside out yesterday, no big deal, done that before, survived it, just an irritant.  But, I was dizzy.  I could not believe I had lost that much blood!  Certainly nowhere near as much as I did in 2012!  And I fainted.  Really?  I ran down the checklist: cold, no sweat though, muscle weakness, mind swimming.

Yup, Kris is going into shock.

But, there had been another emergency and all had rushed away leaving me no call button.  I laid back and tried to focus my mind on why this was happening. If ever this should have happened, it should have been 2012!  And the only change ... Kris now is an emotional creation.  Hmm could the ability to go into shock be related to have an emotion?

My mind swam in and out of reality for over an hour, no doctors, no one to cover me up, nothing I could do but try and fight mentally to overcome.  The body won - for the first time ever.

Emotions, somehow link to the body's situations and can invoke shock?

Such an interesting idea...

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