The ""W"s

So, as I mentioned across the past few weeks, my lymph system went crazy and the doctors got all excited ...

I was stabbed with needles so many times to do the required blood draws that I am still covered in tiny scabs!  I honestly look like a junkie!  Gees!  Like I would ever voluntarily use a needle of any kind, ever!

So, just out of the surgeon's office (Monday afternoon) whom was to do the biopsy of his selection!  I was utterly freaked out!  And a freaked out Kris is not a pretty sight!

I went through lymphoma once, back in 1982 - and it darn near killed me!  The chemo had taken me down 37 pounds the first week and then 8 or so each week there after!  I was only 135 to start with!  At the end of the month I knew I was not going to make the full nine weeks, I would be quite dead.  I could not eat or even drink, I was so extremely ill!  Gatorade was my only nutritional friend ...

You could always count my ribs, I was always super skinny, but I had now dropped to below 90 pounds!  The tendons holding my head up were etched through my skin!  The infamous "W"s ...

Oh, as you may not know the real story behind the Holocaust, you would not know about the "W"s.  That is how the Germans knew when to move the Jews from job to job, to kill them off all the faster!  And when the "W" could be strongly seen, your usefulness to the Reich was over - you were now just waiting for death to set in.  The furnace was not far behind.

Yeah, I had learned that history by 7th grade, from Holocaust survivors and guards I had grown up knowing.  It was a fact, not something that was salacious in nature ...  It was part of the description of how low man had sunk.  It had a strong impact on my life and strongly held beliefs, even as an atheist.  When I became a Hutterite, that belief set was validated by their strong belief in the sacredness of human life.

I stopped my meds and slowly recovered.  Okay, over compensated and still need to get that extra weight off!  (For like a few decades now!)

But thankfully, this time, it is only an infection and now I must wait another week to get in to a doctor for the antibiotics I asked for back on the 17th of September.

Sigh ...